Tuesday, January 22, 2013

This Concept of Wuv*

So First Kiss and I have been together for more than four months now. Last time I was dating, in my early twenties', this was about the time I'd either break up with a guy or tell him I love him. Problem is... I really don't want to do either!

I've found that once you've been in a long term, super serious relationship, your concept of love changes quite a bit. I used to toss out love a bit cavalierly, how many of those people did I really love, maybe one or two?

And, now that I'm older and have been married, I feel like saying "I love you" is tantamount to saying "I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Umm, definitely not ready to marry First Kiss!

Luckily we are taking things slowly, but I'm not sure where he is right now. What if he says it to me and I can't say it back? Should I preemptively explain to him that I'm not comfortable yet? Hmm, that seems pretty presumptuous! I guess I'll have to wait and hopefully everything will turn out ok.
Have you ever not been ready to say I love you back or vice versa? What does "love" mean to you?

*confuses and enrages me!