Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Love Chicken

I'm super excited to feel ready to tell First Kiss that I l-o-v-e him! Yes I feel ready in the sense that I'm comfortable in how I feel... but not ready in the sense that I'm totally terrified to actually say it!

When I titled this post, I meant it to be a loose analogy to playing chicken - where two cars drive at each other and the first to swerve loses. But now I think I was subconsciously calling myself a chicken, hahah.

It's been more than seven months since First Kiss and I got together and neither of us have dropped the l-bomb. Is this normal? I am glad in some ways... many of the times I thought I was in love I wasn't and the relationship didn't even last as long as my current one! And, as I've written before, my definition of love has changed as I've gotten older into something much mor serious. Now when I say "I love you," it means "I want a future with you." Last time I was dating I had just begun to think about marriage and children. Now, well, let's just say every day my Facebook newsfeed makes me want to kill myself :P

I've asked around and most of my girlfriend aren't very comfortable with saying "I love you first." We're all weenies! But I do know this: If he doesn't love me, I should know now. So, even though I'm completely terrified of saying it and freaking him out, I'm giving myself until the end of the month to do it... hold me accountable!